The Sweet Release

These past two weeks I have been preparing a talk fo Sacrament that I have to give this Sunday. Ironically, my topic is "the Lord's tender mercies." I am feeling a little guilty knowing that had I been asked to prepare this a few months ago, it would have been impossible. A few months ago, my heart was breaking. A few months ago, I was bitter at the world. A few months ago, I couldn't help but question my Heavenly Father's love for me when, logically, I knew He did. A few months ago, often I was crying myself to sleep. A few months ago, I was weak.

But finally, when I thought I was for sure going to split right down the middle, I found myself wrapped up in the arms of my Heavenly Father blessing me with the chance I had waited for for so long. It was nothing short of glorious as that pregnany test slowly turned positive. The trial that had weighed me down heavier and heavier over these past 15 months was realeased, and it was sweet.

My heart is still a little heavy because I wish for everyone that suffers trying to get pregnant and failing over and over again, and those whose precious little ones are taken away that they will soon experience the sweet release of anguish and find a bundle of joy in their arms. My success doesn't take away the fact that others may not find my same ending, but I pray with all my heart that whatever ending they find, that it will be happy. My prayers are still strong for those wishing for a little one of their own. A woman who is denied her own children suffers deeply. I have tasted a small portion of this bitterness and it is poisioning. Wrap your arms tightly around them. Tell them you love them. Cry with them and pray for them.

All my love,

Halley

P.S. I wanted to say a BIG THANK YOU to NANCY who left a sweet, thoughtful comment. I love hearing that this reaches more people than I think and that they are affected. Nancy, your words were so touching and I know that you love and cherish your little ones. How lucky they are to have you.

The Wait is Over and The Results Are In...

WE ARE FINALLY PREGNANT!!!!! And so beyond excited!!!

P.S. Both of those pee sticks (yep, I said it) are hanging triumphantly on my fridge!!! Bring on the morning sickness! :)